Thursday, August 31, 2006
4:53 pm
sorry i think i need to edit the 2-liner.
Only God can make our lives complete, Only He can provide all our needs.Whee =)
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+ +Monday, August 28, 2006
10:18 pm
philo-ing with XQ:
the first question we talked about is:
what is life?XQ: not very sure yet. for now, i think it is about filling up your heart. i'll tell you when i find an answer =)
part of my answer is:
life is a journey, a test and life is a gift from God. my reason for living is to do everything i can for God, because of what He has done for me and
for everyone of us. the very least i can do is to live my life for Him and to love Him.
Everyone has sinned and because of this, have been separated from God. we humans were created for fellowship with God , and this was broken because of sin.
Because of God's great love, Jesus Christ came to earth as a man.
He lived a sinless life and was sacrificed on the cross.
He was tortured, beaten and died.
BUT, Christ conquered death-- He was resurrected, and left the sealed tomb after 3 days. Several days later, Christ ascended bodily to heaven.
God promises everlasting life to whoever believes in His Son =)
second question:
do you think money is the root of all evil?XQ:
i dont think it is the root cause either. i think the root cause is human's greedy and selfish nature.me: nope. "For the love of money is at the root of all kinds of evil."-1 Tim 6:10!
wahaha. the Bible tells us flat in the face that it is
'the love of'. how relevant God's Word is in today's world! and it was relevant yesterday, is relevant today and will continue to be relevant in the future =)
why do humans even love money? what is money associated with? power. yeap. the love of money is only one aspect of the greater greed in the world. ever since Adam and Eve, there has been a struggle for power. This desire/craving for power caused the first humans to partake of the fruit from the tree which God clearly instructed against eating.
Even today, greed and this meaningless struggle for power still goes on. why? because humans
want more. it's not that wanting more per se is bad because it is also how we can improve.
However, we must question ourselves about our
motivations for wanting more. is it just for "power" (or anything else)? if so, i dare say that this person will never ever be satisfied. paradoxically, as one progresses in this quest for more "power"(or anything else), one may become increasingly disatisfied, increasingly finding something missing.
"People who live only for self-gratification, no matter how lofty their achievements, will always long for more. " ODB March14 2003
"The eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing. "—Ecclesiastes 1:8
True satisfaction comes when we live for God; with God only are we satisfied =)
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+ +9:39 pm
i'm so happy i'm so glad i'm just overflowing with joy.
God is greater than GREAT!Here's a 2-liner i came up with:
Only God can make my life complete, Only He can provide all my needs.
whee. isn't it nice? =) i shall continue when i get more inspiration.
there's no school tomorrow. i'm going to bishancc to study ...whoops i meant finish tutorials; re-live the o level days at bcc. HAH. (let me indulge a bit la) oh yea. anyone reading this can feel free to come ;) wahaha.
today's a nice day.the session at piano was great, had a nice long conversation with SL on the bus today after guitar and its ZM's birthday!
spanish is nice, i seem to be able to pick it up rather quickly. but i must rememeber not to get carried away. TUTORIALS!!
more serious stuff:
what on earth are they showing on
TV these days!? i just find the variety shows on channel X really distasteful. and they air such shows on prime time TV! yucks. by watching them we can learn few things, and they give singaporeans a bad image. i shan't elaborate. go watch it yourself. and drama serials as well, especially local productions. heh. and they call this "entertainment". RIGHTT.
i signed up for Outward Bound Korea. actually i signed up last week. don't kill me la amiga =P
i know some may say: who would want to pay to suffer??
haha. oh well. i signed up for it and i won't back out of my commitment. i almost withdrew but my dad persuaded and strongly encouraged me to go. so there.
anyway, i originally signed up for Outward Bound Japan. too bad they didn't have the programme this year, so have to re-sign up, and for Korea.
Japan seemed easier you see and there is bed and toilet and cultural exchange =P
and i just realised just now that ZM is going as well! wahaha. i had a slight hunch but didnt think too much about it. who knew? wahaha. yeay. at least now i know someone else going =D
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+ +Tuesday, August 22, 2006
9:40 pm
God is amazing!
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+ +Monday, August 21, 2006
5:23 pm
when troubles come, what do you do?
even though the song One Way goes like this...
In troubled times its You i seek
i put You first thats all i need
...
i find that sometimes, even though i try, it seems so hard. why??
i need to stop being so immature.
i need to learn to praise God in all circumstances.
i need to stop letting my emotions block out everything else.
sorry if i let my bad mood affect anyone these days. sorry.
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+ +Saturday, August 19, 2006
1:08 am
Something jose shared with me...
use patience not tolerence.
LOVE
FAITH
HOPE
SINCERITY
HUMILITY
ENCOURAGEMENT
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+ +Friday, August 18, 2006
11:44 pm
i had Oral Presentation workshop yesterday. supposed to be with EAT but she had her H3 stuff so had to change date. Thankfully, JS(originally supposed to go another class) went to the same class i went. (wahaha. shh. by one of my sneaky subtle power of suggestion) and JS went in "legally" with Ms Tan's approval =P
i chose the topic "Focus on the important things in life". i shall put part of my speech here. some parts are not what i said exactly in my speech.
What would you do if you had only 3 days left on earth? [comments!] Cliched as the question sounds, it forces us to think about our priorities-- what is more important to us. Is it family? friends? religion/faith? God?
...
Humans have been around for more than 6000 years; the average lifespan of a human living in a developed society is 70 years. My point? Our short time here on earth can be likened to a grain of sand in the desert. A stanza from the song Who Am I? by Casting Crowns sums it up really nicely:
i am a flower quickly fadinghere today and gone tomorrowa wave tossed in the oceana vapour in the wind
...
(speech ends after talking more about finding focus in life)
My purpose is not to belittle anyone. nah uh. What i want to say is: no matter how small, how insignificant we may feel at times, there is Someone out there who
cares about and
knows everything you think, you do. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.[Matt 10:30]
Do you want to get to know this Someone? Do you want a relationship with God?
=)
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+ +Wednesday, August 16, 2006
10:19 pm
something amazing happened today. while doing PA duty, i received an sms from miss ong, saying that i've been shortlisted for sapphire scholars programme. i was quite shocked because i didn't even go for the interviews AND i had sucky CT results.
XQ advised me to sms her to check if there was a mistake. well, her reply? "you wanted to apply for medicine scholarship right? we shortlisted those directly".
whoa. and the thought seemed so so far away. i was totally confused and if you read my previous entry, you would know why. do i still want to try to apply for medicine? what made me change my mind? the superficial ones i thought of were biomed and my sucky CT results. deeper down, i dont really know the exact cause. am i just easily discouraged? am i afraid of aiming too high and not meeting it? am i afraid of admitting the fact that i need to work hard, much harder than i ever did? am i just wanting the easy way out? am i?
i'm afraid i am. but then again, could i just be underestimating myself?
then again, shortlisted
=/= selected right?
ok enough of that. why did God give me this opportunity and countless others? perhaps He has a plan for me, a plan
far greater than what i can imagine. He must have a reason behind everything He puts in my life..
okay, heh. i shall attempt to practice what i preach.
He brings you to it, He'll bring you through it.
Shepherd of my soul i give you full control
wherever You may lead i will follow
i have made the choice to listen to Your voice
wherever You may lead i will go
be it in a quiet pasture
or by a quiet stream
the
Shepherd of my soul is by my sideshould i face a mighty mountain
or a valley dark and deep
the
Shepherd of my soul will be my guide
tsk. i just feel so unworthy of all these.
i'm frustrated because i feel that i've let Him down again and again, reverting to my old ways
Lord, teach me and help me learn
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+ +Tuesday, August 15, 2006
11:20 pm
i made a new friend-- a sister in Christ! =D
i stumbled upon her blog while searching for the lyrics of "How Could I Live", which i posted in the previous entry. she's a really nice, God-loving young lady. do visit her
blog! and she told me about Dr Samuel Doctorian's
prophesy. interesting.
i'm supposed to pretend that i never sat for Chem SPA today. However, i do remember that i felt quite sad after 1230hrs 150806. i have no idea why. what happened before that? there seems to be a void after chinese ended at 1050hrs. i just cant seem to remember. hmms. *wink* Thank God skills B and C are assessed independantly of each other. <- where did that thought come from?? what is wrong with me these days?!
i procrastinatei spend lots of time online and i don't know how
i dont finish my homework
because i stare at the questions and stone
medicine doesn't seem to interest me no more
sociology and other social sciences seem to intrigue me more
i spent 1 hr+ poring over books in the library's "religion sociology philosophy" section
i'm sick of "failures". i want victories. victories for You Lord. For You.
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
- 2 Timothy 1:7 (NIV, emphasis mine)
He shall say: "Hear, O Israel, today you are going into battle against your enemies. Do not be fainthearted or afraid; do not be terrified or give way to panic before them. For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory."
- Deuteronomy 30:3-4 (NIV, emphasis mine)
I do not trust in my bow,
my sword does not bring me victory; but you give us victory over our enemies,
you put our adversaries to shame.
In God we make our boast all day long,
and we will praise your name forever.
Selah
- Psalm 44:6-8 (NIV, emphasis mine)
XQ and i commented during physics today about wanting more choices for contrasting subjects.
psychology sociology philosophy (KI without literature component according to her). so cool right? if only... hmm. should we make a recommendation to MOE?
you know what? the idea of drawing up new education policies in MOE seems increasingly attractive. isn't it so? doing studies and giving my two cents' worth (that would be worth more) on how to make the education scene more vibrant and enjoyable for students. wahaha. improving on current policies. cool. if only i know how to get there.
i feel that my english is not up to standard. "idiomatic expressions" don't come as easily to me as before (last year perhaps). i have a bad feeling that what teachers say is true-- reading newspapers can improve your english! heh. FYI: i haven't been reading the papers as regularly as before. look at the result.
something quite freaky happened. XQ and i both bought the same brand (silkpro) shampoo on saturday evening and used it on sunday, without us telling each other about it until monday. she said something like "you are still you and i'm still me right? correct body right?" LOL. honestly speaking, i was stunned and doubted for a second. ahaha.
i gotta snap outta this crappy mood/feeling/whatever you call it.
sobs
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+ +Sunday, August 13, 2006
11:25 pm
5OTH ENTRY!!!
God is working mightily!
We sang this song during service today. It really touched my heart.
How could I live without You
How could I survive
Without Your love
Without Your touch
You're the One that heals me
And cleanses my heart
And sets me free
Now i come right before You
With my hands lifted up
With my heart humbly bowed
At Your work on the cross
As You hang there and diedYou were paying the priceFor my life, For my lifeFor Your love is higher than the heavens
Deeper than the seas
And all I want is You in my lifeNo one else can satisfy my soulCan make me feel this way
Only You Lord, only You Amen.
Friends, Christ died and paid the price for our sins. Why would anyone want to reject someone like that? Friends, wouldn't you just take the step of faith?
Come and experience what God has in store for you!
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Something i read in "2 Tell U e Truth" SYFC Camp File:
"The problem with fear is not fear itself but the fact that we allow it to immobilize us. Being afraid is no sin. Shirking back fearfully from obedience is sin... You can trust God... (and) move ahead in obedience because you understand fear and know how to deal with it."
-- Wayne McDill, Making Friends for Christ, p.103
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+ +Saturday, August 12, 2006
10:43 pm
Something VERY IMPORTANTi almost forgot. This morning, ZM and i were MSN-ing about the End Of The World.
Just a thought: What will happen if the world ends tomorrow? What if Christ returns tomorrow? What if it happens in 10 minutes? (Leave your comments please!)
Haha.
Honestly, i'm feeling a wee bit scared. Not for myself because of the assurance of everlasting life i have from God's Word,
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
-- John 3:16 (KJV)
More so, i'm feeling slightly scared for my many loved ones. i don't wanna think about what would happen to them =x
But it is a
fact. It is
real.
However,
all is not lost yet. By God's grace, the assurance of salvation is
open to all.
- In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Genesis 1:1
- So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them. Genesis 1:27
- However, "all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" Romans 3:23
- Sin: generally defined as rebellion against God. (a thorough explanation of sin will take
quite some time)
- Because God is holy, sin is incompatible with His kingdom.
- For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 6:23
- "death" does not refer to physical death but spiritual death.
- If anyone's name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire. Revelations 20:15
- God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
- Jesus was a perfect man -- without sin. And He was God
- Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6
- But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8
- Jesus died and was raised from the dead 3 days later. "He is not here; he has risen, just as he said." Matthew 28:6a
Friends, it is not enough to know the above.
- We have to believe
Confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Romans 10:9
- We have to confess
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9
- We have to repent
Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord, Acts 3:19
- We have to follow Christ
Feel free to approach me if you would like to know more (or if you have made that important decision!) =)
Friends, my wish for you is to be able to experience this wonderful love, love beyond all the words in the world can describe =)
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+ +7:39 pm
i met LS today!!! =) We went to eat pepper lunch at hougang mall. We originally intended to meet at 1pm. Then i came up with the idea of meeting earlier at 12.45pm because i she has a meeting in church at 2pm+.
-_-" in the end, i reached hougang MRT at 1.07pm. Heh. Even later than the original plan.
Anyway, that's not the important part. On the bus, i was reflecting and thinking about my behaviour. I spent A LOT of time online (sometimes i appear offline =P) reading/discussing christian websites and stuff. AND i've been neglecting/spending time on what's more important -- reading God's Word and talking to Him.
Suddenly, the story of Martha and Mary came to my mind. (it was tucked at the back of my mind. i think it was in Sec3 when they talked about it in GB)
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As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!" "Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." -- Luke 10:38-41 (NIV, emphasis mine)
=x i feel like Martha. i've been doing things that seem important (eg. apologetics/discussion of theology/reading christian websites)
It's not that they are unimportant (questions or doubts should be cleared) ; just that spending time with God is more important.
Dear Lord, thank you so much for showing this to me. Lord, help me and remind me to be more like Mary. i want to do what is more important in Your eyes!
Amen.
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+ +Friday, August 11, 2006
8:56 pm
Here's a nice website
http://www.greatcom.org/laws/english/flash/
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+ +8:53 pm
new link added.
josephine's blog. haha. so coincidental. we have the same skin! =)
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+ +Wednesday, August 09, 2006
9:54 pm
joy is different from happiness.
thus, i have edited the previous post slightly.
there is a God-shaped hole in everyone's heart.
is yours filled yet?
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+ +Monday, August 07, 2006
9:54 pm
Now that tomorrow is National Day celebration, and there are no lessons, i can afford some time to blog about the issues at my mind.
1)
i think that one's
joy/happiness/gladness should not come from other's unfortunate or undesirable circumstances. Something quite unfair is happening and i don't know what i should do.. is it right to laugh at someone who is being bullied or treated unfairly? well if one has a conscience, one should know the answer. just put oneself in that person's shoes. would you like to be laughed at by everyone?
that's also why i STRONGLY DISLIKE "reality/candid" shows such as "just for laughs" or "america's funniest home videos". they play the "laughter" sound when someone falls down from a ladder or is on a vehicle that is out of control? What is this?! Laughing at someone's misfortune?
argh. its really really sad. i just don't think its right to derive satisfaction or
joy from others' misfortune. i just think that satisfaction should not be relative.
2) things have been QUITE overwhelming recently, as evident from previous posts =P
sometimes, it really seems like 24 hours a day isn't ever enough to complete everything are supposed to do and i'm sure many of you agree with that =P
i was blog-hopping a few days ago and read something from ZM's cell blog that struck a cord with me. God promised that He will not be with us all the time. He lives in us!
When faced with troubles, trials or difficulties, do we face them with our
own strength or the
strength that comes from God? If your answer is "i don't know", then you are most probably doing it with your own strength. when i read it, shivers went down my spine. hehs. i knew i was trying to struggle with my own strength.
3) that day XQ mentioned about mormonism in utah. then i thought about jehovah's witnesses as well.
... these groups have "Jesus Christ" in their teachings and are commonly mistaken to be "Christian" as well. It's sad as because of this, many don't get to know what God can really offer... However, it's a constant reminder to Christians that we should "always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have" =)
14But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. "Do not fear what they fear; do not be frightened." 15But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, 16keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander.
-- 1 Peter 3:14-16
4) Festival Of Praise
it was super. wahaha. i cant remember all the exact details so i'll just refer you to EAT's
blog. EAT: hope you don't mind =P
http://to-eternity.blogspot.com/
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+ +Sunday, August 06, 2006
10:58 pm
i have lots of stuff to blog about, but there seems to be not enough time to do that.
here is what's most important.
God is so amazing, its beyond description. i just stand in awe of His Mighty Love for us. His love, so unconditional so unfailing does not discriminate.
Why would God love someone so unworthy, so unfaithful like myself? The very fact that He does, and that He loves everyone demonstrates his great love for us.
i was so touched that tears kept flowing down my cheeks uncontrollably during Holy Communion and later during altar call.
He's just so so so so so GOOD.
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+ +Saturday, August 05, 2006
12:31 pm
1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
i have been tagged by XiaoQi. i find i quite meaningless but i'll just do it anyway, even though i have tonnes of homework and more pressing issues =P
Currents:
Current Mood: slightly frustrated
Current Taste: what taste?
Current Clothes: home clothes
Current Toenail Colour: natural.
Curent Time: 12.28 AM
Current Surroundings: study room
Current Annoyances: nothing much. mmm. this tag thingy perhaps? =P
Current Thoughts: the song "Blessed be Your name" ... every blessing you pour out Lord, i'll turn to praise.. When the darkness closes in Lord, still i will say.. blessed be Your name =)
First:
First Best Friends: haha i'm not sure if the friends in primary school can be considered as "best friends". haha. sadly, didnt keep in contact with many of them. Bestest bestest friend? Jesus =)
First Crush: haha no one will know =P
First Movie: first one at cinema should be lion king I? haha
First Lie: couldnt remember
First Music: i suppose its my parent's voice?
Lasts:
Last Cigarette: NEVER in my entire life.
Last Drink: water =P i dont drink alcohol. still underaged
Last Car Ride: friday morning to school
Last Crush: no one will ever know =P
Last Movie: nanny mcphee? haha.
Last Phone Call: last night. my mum thought i was lost cos i was still out at 11 plus =P wahaha. Festival of Praise was super! so nice to see so many Christians filling up the whole indoor stadium. whee! read abt it in my nxt entry =)
Last CD played: some oldies CD. to listen to the tune of Yesterday Once More so tt i can play the piece better.
Last song played: played on guitar? yesterday once more melody. heard? God of Wonders
Have you ever:
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: never dated? haha.
Have you ever broken the law: yea. not the constitution type of law though. i hope
Have you ever been arrested: no
Have you ever skinny-dipped: what is that??
Have you ever been on TV: yea. like 1 second
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: NO
5 things you are wearing: clothes. not enough to reach 5.
4 things you did today: washed up. listen n sing christian songs. chat. read mail.
1 thing you do when you are bored: think about God's greatness =)
ok done. phew. should i tag others? i dont want too many others to go through the "agony" =P
jasmine. junli. ruth. xinhui. cherelle. =P
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