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"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
[ Jeremiah 29:11 ]

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Friday, October 06, 2006

11:15 pm

After trying to type my entry directly into blogger MANY MANY times, I gave up and decided to type it into Microsoft Word first. Something’s wrong with my internet connection =x

Argh. This feels so unnatural. After not blogging for lets see… 15 days? I think I kind of lost the “feeling” of writing, even though I have lots to blog about. I kept a little log of the random thoughts/reflections I had each day during the Promos and the time before that. Whee. After much thought, I decided to upload these entries by parts, naming the entries—[j-reflections: septober2006] =P call it lame, whatever. Ahaha. I can’t think of anything else yet. Open to suggestions =) I also had the initial thought of categorising the entries according to Faith/Random interesting events/general opinions and thoughts about the world but decided against it because it’s very hard to separate them. They’re all part of me, interwoven, virtually inseparable.

[j-reflections: septober2006]
Part I

090906-100906:

My family went to Corpthorne Waterfront Hotel for 1 day to celebrate my parents’ ROM Anniversary and anniversary. Ahaha. Weird thing is, my sis and I stayed overnight while my parents went home =P

We watched the movie “I am Sam” on HBO and I cried non-stop. This is the first time a MOVIE has ever made me cry at least 80% of the time. Ahaha. Watch it if you have the chance =)

170906:

I forgot to take my wallet when I left the house for church!!! Ahh!!! And I only realised it when I arrived at the bus stop opposite J8 -_-“ I was debating whether or not to go home to get it and decided against the idea. No way I’m going to miss what I waited one whole week for =) So, I said a short prayer and plucked up my courage to ask someone at the bus stop for 50 cents. I looked around the bus stop for people who looked kind. Ahaha. I realised that the lady sitting next to me was reading something written by a pastor. Hmms. Sweet. So I asked, and she gave =) I managed to get to church on time =)

[Approx] 180906

The sky was brighter earlier than usual. I remembered O Level Geog, and came to a hypothesis that that day was the autumn equinox—the day where the sun is directly above the equator, ie., suns rays hit the equator directly (this is not usually the case because of the tilt of the earth about its axis). I was unsure so I decided to check with JL (Pure Geog as well) about the days where the sun is in the sky the longest for equatorial regions. -_-“ his reaction was “explosive” I must say. He insisted that the longest days were the summer and winter solstice. He sounded so convicted that I doubted my hypothesis. Still, I didn’t accept it. Haha. I went home that day and decided to do a search about it. Haha. Wikipedia says I’m right =P

200906:

Wahaha. My birthday =) I can’t believe I didn’t blog on my birthday.

biG bIG BIG GRACIAS to la amiga. She baked shortcakes for me!!! She spent the whole night baking even though promos were just around the corner. So touched. It was super yummy too. And she was the only one who called to wish me happy birthday =)

Big thanks to Jack, Jasmine and Zhuang Mao who bought me the book Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis =)

Thanks to those who

SMS-ed me in order of receipt of SMS: Jun Li, Ming Xuan [on behalf of PA], Shu Huey, Zhuang Mao, Sarah, Li Si, Charis, Cihui, Tan Chun

MSN/E-mail: Sweedy, Komathi

And other people who wish me happy birthday =)

There was also GP make-up lesson. Mr Leong was being super secretive about the GP Tutor’s code thing.initially, he wanted to giver every group different codes. It made me so excited. It was if there’s some gigantic conspiracy among the teachers. LOL. He said other teachers knew his code for the pass few years. We asked, “Did your students die?” Mr Leong, “No… They’re already dead.” =P Lol. So he instructed us not to let anyone else know the code.

I don’t know if this epinephrine surge caused the O Level Biology “long term effect of adrenaline on the body: tired muscles”. That lesson caused me to start worrying about GP quite a bit, and the soreness throughout my body lasted the whole day. For no apparent rhyme or reason, the muscle soreness had to “attack” on my birthday. Sometimes, my fingers even felt numb =x But, knowing that I was powerless in doing anything about the soreness, I prayed. Thankfully, the soreness disappeared at around 10pm+ =)

[Approx] 210906:

I kept wondering and thinking about the purpose of studying. Even though I know that as a Christian student, my motivation for studying should be for the glory of God. Somehow, no matter how hard I tried to see it in this light, I couldn’t convince myself. As in, how can chasing after material things—in this case, paper qualifications, bring glory to God huh? At least that was how it seemed to me at that point. I was extremely frustrated. Moreover, I didn’t know why I studied hard for. Why I stayed in NJC even though my mum said it doesn’t matter (even encouraged) if I went to a JC that was less competitive, more relaxed. I felt dumb, as if studying was totally meaningless. Later on, you’ll read about the development of this issue. I disturbed several people with this question =P

I nearly freaked out about GP exams. Sent SOS SMSes to those not taking the same exam as me the next day. Eunice and Liang Yi called me to pray with me over the phone =)

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